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Today I ask myself, ano ba talaga sakit ko? I took almost every test. Lahat na ata, blood test, xray, ECG, 2D echo, and Lung function test and the results are okay. Pero bat ganun? I feel so sick. Inside. Kanina nga ewan ko, I went to an albularyo, baka daw nakulam ako or whatsoever pero ayun, wala din makita yung albularyo which means hindi ako nakulam. I don't know what to think. Parusa na ato ni God sa akin. Ayoko magpaka-negative pero its what I really feel. Deep inside, my body aches and throat hurts, my muscles are trembling, I can't sleep well, backpain at parang bibigay na din ang katawan ko. I want to cry kaso walang lumalabas na luha, I've been constantly praying to God with all my heart, na sana marinig niya yung mga prayers ko. I know I've been hard headed at talagang pasaway. I honestly think I created my own misery. Ewan. Nasstress nako. I don't want to be sickkkkkk. Sabi nga ni mama kanina "Nasa sayo kung aalagaan mo yang sakit mo. Makinig ka nalang at maniwala kasi wala naman mawawala." Yes. That's what I've been trying to do for the past few weeks pero walang nangyayari. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


I want to stay positive but I feel like breaking down. Nagseself pity kasi ata ako. Cheer me up. </3