I MISS THE OLD ME. :|
Is there a new me? I think so. Truth is, I don't think much nowadays, I can't feel the love of my new found friends, something's missing. I know because I know and I can feel it. Its like I forgot how it feels to have everyone - MY HS FRIENDS, MY BATCH MATES, my real friends!! I feel so alone, so invisible, so worthless, so messed up. I don't know. I'm so dumb. Part of me wants other people to forget me like I never existed, part of me wants recognition of people I care about. And that's the problem, I don't show people how much I miss them and how much I care for them because I'm such a bad friend. I'm a very very awful friend. I don't deserve friends. I suck at being a true friend! Aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh.
