yay. it's march 31 last day of the month. uh, so sad. i didn't join the movie. OUR movie supposedly. i was becoming more lazy this past few days. & i can't help it. i just wanna stay in bed. tsk. what's happenin to me? its our last bonding & i'm not cooperating at all. im really so stupid. my aunt scolded me this morning and she said that the person who wakes up after the sun rises is lazy & will never get far in life. how's that. haha. i don't take it negatively cause i admit that i'm lazy but, i realized if this laziness continue what will happen to me in the future? maybe i'll be a PROFESSIONAL TAMBAY. haha. that's what i think. i have no plans for my future. & i'l be a freshman college next school year. huh? i don't really have a course in mind right now. maybe after summer i'll be having an idea. i don't want someone teaching what course to choose. it just worsen things. anyway, while writing this blog i'm hearing some graduation rights here beside our house. yeah. reminds me of our upcoming GRADUATION.
i really don't wanna graduate and go back to tugue again. i want to study in manila but i guess my parents don't want me there. hmm. & that's another reason why i have no course in mind yet because of the school i'm entering in college. i think, if i stay in tugue my friends and i will hardly meet & lessen our closeness. & i don't want that to happen. but i think it's happenin cause all of them are studying in manila. and i will be the one LEFT. i remember when my other friend said when busses pass "oh. we will be riding on that every sem." and we all laughed & she added "how about you? van only?" then they all burst out with laughter. it really hurt me. but i guess that's life. i can't change my real situation right now.
i told my mom to take the exam in ust & pup but she ignored me. she really didn't want me to study in manila. i think they're afraid that i can't cope up with the community there or i couldn't take care of myself. or maybe they're afraid i might be on the slum part of the city. i don't know the real reason.
i really wanted to prove them wrong but i have no guts to say it to them. so this is the end for me. HOPE they change their minds soon.
